That Time I Had an Accidental Kundalini Awakening
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It was in the middle of Summer of 2020 and I was practicing in the middle of my bed/living room of my teeny, tiny apartment; in downtown Portland Oregon (I’m attempting to set the scene). I was practicing a dance move I learned from the burlesque workshop I was taking. I was listening to the music I had put on and synced into my body, noticing how when my hips were moving, how that impacted my torso, and how the movement of my torso affected the sensations in my back...really synced into my body and noticing it. I was shimmying with my legs when something started to happen…
One of the things that we learned in this workshop was different burlesque dance moves. How do I describe a shimmy? I suppose the best way I can describe this movement is it's basically shaking and jiggling your body, swaying your hips. You can isolate and shimmy your upper body or lower body or both. Anyway, I was shimming and focusing on my hips and legs and syncing more into my body. And gradually I noticed that I was experiencing a different kind of sensation.
Before I continue, I just want to acknowledge I am attempting to describe something that I’m not sure I can adequately describe with words. It’s kind of like trying to explain how an orgasm feels to someone who has never had that before…Also, when I think about how a lot of people are taught to not trust their body (lots of reasons why this happens: trauma, restrictive religions, shame; to call out a few); I understand how some people who encounter these kinds of experiences may believe they are either being possessed by another entity or going crazy; because a kundalini awakening is NOT subtle…at least, not in my experience.
So, I noticed this sensation in my pelvic area as I was moving my thighs and hips…and then I experienced this blissful, euphoric, pleasurable, and orgasmic feeling in my body that went from my pelvis, down my thighs and alllllllll the way to the top of my head, an explosion of creative life force energy. As this feeling spread throughout my body, I remember thinking, “It is so good to be in this body!!!”. How long did that sensation last for? 10 seconds, 20, 30, 60….I am not sure, I forgot to look at the time. But that experience was life-changing for sure. I mean, it highlighted just how ignorant I am of what my body is capable of experiencing. That surprising and yummy kundalini awakening did just that; it awoke and lead me to an understanding of just how mysterious and awe-inspiring it is to exist as a human being. It is more than okay to explore what our bodies can do for us because our bodies do a lot for us and are capable of giving us so, so much more than we realize.
I don’t know a whole lot about kundalini awakenings. But I do know enough that I had one; that one time. I have tried on multiple occasions to replicate that experience but I have not been successful, much to my dismay. What I do understand is that these kinds of experiences show up differently for different people. Some people, much like I did, will have an intensely pleasurable, orgasmic experience that leaves you panting. And other people experience an energetic experience that is nowhere near like having an orgasm. Does it mean anything in particular if you do have a kundalini experience and it resembles an orgasm? Does it mean you have more creative energy? Does it mean you are hornier than the average person??? I don’t what it means. And that’s okay. I am just grateful I had that surprising experience. And maybe one day, I will have another. :)
Some music I listened to while writing/contemplating this:
Be a Body by Grimes
Glass by Blood Cultures
